March 05, 2003 :: 11:11 p.m.
bloody bleeding badness and mmm, Faith
So there's this thing happening. This bleeding thing. This woozy, crampy, menstrual-esque bleeding thing. My period just ended a week ago, after kicking my ass for NINE DAYS STRAIGHT. I have never in my entire bleeding career had a period that lasted more than 7 days. Ever. Before I went on the pill, they averaged 5 to 6 days and were intensely painful. For the past year and a half or so, thanks to the wonders of modern contraceptives, they've been around 3 or 4 days, occasionally 5. Still painful, but not quite as bad. I think this last one was so long because I haven't had much of a period at all for the last three months or so. But all of this is irrelevant, because as I said just a moment ago, that freakish, never-ending, making-up-for-lost-time period just ended a week ago. And now I'm bleeding again. Only it's different this time. The blood is really bright and thin, not like period-type blood at all. You know what I mean. And if you don't, you're male, and you should probably run screaming into the night as fast as your little legs can carry you. Your fellow boys have a really big head-start, because they started running as soon as they encountered the word "bleeding."
Ahem. Anyway. I'm very confused, and somewhat uncomfortable. I can't be having TWO periods this close together, can I? That's just ridiculous, and could actually be impossible. I want to call my mommy and ask her what's wrong with me, but my phone is a crack head and doesn't work properly. So someone tell me what's going on before I go catatonic and huddle in the corner, rocking back and forth and gnawing at my fingertips.
Gah. I've been so exhausted all day. I actually did drag myself out for a walk, though, albeit a shorter one than usual. Adam came along, which is really the only reason I didn't just crawl into bed. We were in a rather irritating predicament this evening, with both of our roommates hanging around. His was sleeping, as usual (grr), and mine was cultivating her bedsores and watching TV. For a while I thought we were going to miss Angel, which would have made me cry like a little girl - I mean, Faith was on tonight! Really now. We ended up watching it in his room, ignoring his sleeping roommate. Andy (said roommate) is the most fucked up, smelly person on the planet. He smells worse than Goth Boy, and let me tell you, that's really an accomplishment. It was a really good episode, with Faith being all bad-ass. I'm happy to see that she's not going to become Little Miss Contrite like Willow and Spike. Although Spike would technically be Little Mister Contrite, but whatever. She hasn't lost her edge, so to speak. Mmm, Faith. I have such a girl-crush on her.
Spring Break is in 43 hours and counting. I think. My math could be off, as I just did it in my head and my head is far from reliable when it comes to math stuff. But it's SOON, people, VERY SOON! I cannot wait. Adam mentioned blowing off class on Friday and leaving tomorrow night, and it's deliciously tempting. But I don't think we will, because we both have two classes to attend and neither of us is really the skipping type. We're goody-goodies, despite what I may lead you to believe. Although I believe it's fairly clear that in spite of my bottomless hate and tendency toward violence, I'm a good kid. I just have some issues, as do we all.
Adam's a much better kid than I am, though. He's sweet and kind and friendly and all the things that I'm not, unless you're one of my very good friends. Of which there are... four. Maybe I'm just so bitter because I only have four friends? Nah. I like my four friends. They rock. I don't want cheap, sub-par imitations of my rocking friends - I'd rather just have the four. Not that there's anyone at this godforsaken school that I'd really want to be friends with, anyway, but that's beside the point. I think. I sort of forget what the point is, so it's possible that that's not really beside it. It might be behind it or something instead.
Anyway, the RA's are coming around to do fire safety checks soon. Or maybe they were already here. I honestly have no idea. Adam and I went to Turkey Hill for chips and chocolate milk (mmm), so they may have come while we were gone. No matter. I'm going to play around in Illustrator for a while and then get some much-needed sleep.
'Night.
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