July 31, 2004 :: 5:17 p.m.
this new light sucks
I haven't updated in a while. Not a whole lot of note going on to talk about. We "secured" the apartment on Thursday, and I can start moving in tomorrow. So I'm slowly boxing everything up and trying to shake the mild depression that's set in recently and seems intent on hanging around and ruining my fun.
I don't know. Before it was actually real, all of this seemed new and fun and exciting and liberating. Now that it's here it still feels new, but fun, exciting, and liberating have been replaced by hard, scary, and lonely. It's... unpleasant. There's another issue as well, but I don't really want to pick it apart anymore. It's been saturating my brain for the last month or so, and at this point I just kind of want to let it go and deal with whatever does end up happening when it actually happens. But apparently I'm not wired that way, so it's just buzzbuzzbuzz with the hope and grrgrrrgrr with the anger and MER with the uncertainty and disappointment. It's like the Thunderdome, only with my emotions. Yay.
And now I'm serious hungry, so I'm going to cobble something together before my stomach grows teeth and starts chowing down on itself. More later.
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