November 22, 2001 :: 5:27 p.m.
college pros and cons
listening to... Poe,
Haunted.
reading... tex and molly in the afterlife, by Richard Grant.
feeling... like I have to pee.
Thanksgiving minus the turkey still equals too much food.
Everyone gathered at my sister Molly's house for dinner, which wasn't really dinner since it was around 1 o' clock, but you know. There were so many kids there... have I mentioned before that I'm an aunt like seven time? Yep. Soon to be eight times. One of my sisters didn't come, though, so her two weren't there. My brother Jobe and his wife came with their daughter, whose name I don't know how to spell (Mikaila?); I haven't really seen her since she was born, and she got BIG. She's got the most gorgeous blue eyes and these really long eyelashes, which are a bit odd - I've never really seen big eyelashes on a baby. Meh. Why am I talking about babies? I don't know. I just wanted to say that there were millions of kids there, but noooo, I had to get side-tracked. Moving on.
My Thanksgiving was rather uneventful. Went, ate food, felt sick, came home, and that's about it. My younger brother Mason went to Jobe's for the night or the weekend or something, so that's kind of nice. Mason means well, but he's so godawful annoying without even trying to be. I think I'm going over to Adam's tonight, not for Thanksgiving, but for... something. Like to hang out or something. He was invited to our thing, but he had family stuff, so he was saved once again from the terrors of my family. They mean well, but they're so weird. I think they'd intimidate him. If I met my family they'd intimidate me. Actually, I think they'd cause me to run screaming into the night with pantyhose over my head, but that's just me. I don't know. He might have been all right. *laughs* My grandma is about ready to see us married. I'm serious! She would have cornered him to talk about the wedding.
Now, to change the subject completely... I still don't know what I'm doing about college. For a while I thought I wanted to go to art school, but then I decided that I didn't, and everything was cool. But now I'm reconsidering and it's all confusing again. So I'm going to try and do a pros/cons kind of thing, and I'm going to do it here because I don't know where else to do it:
Art School Pros
I enjoy art. Therefore, I would enjoy school.
It would help me to maybe, possibly, someday get a job doing something that I love, and that challenges me creatively.
No math! At least, I don't think there's any math.
Art School Cons
It's so expensive.
I'd probably have to go out of state, which means that I'd be really far away from Adam.
It's harder to get in, and I don't know if I'm good enough or motivated enough.
I may not be able to get a job at all. My sculpture teacher in high school said that his sister got a degree in graphic design and that five years out of college she still hadn't found a job that required it.
Regular School Pros
Less expensive.
Much closer to home.
There are a lot more "regular" jobs out there than there are art-related ones.
I'd get to learn Japanese (if I do go to regular school, I want to major or minor in Asian Studies).
It would give me a more well-rounded education.
Regular School Cons
It would frustrate me to think that I came to a regular school just because I was too afraid to try another option.
Purely academic studies might bore me to death.
If I don't put my creativity to use it could just die on me.
List over. Arrrrgh! I'm just grasping at straws here. I don't know what I'm doing. I never know what I'm doing. Someone needs to tell what the hell I'm supposed to do with myself, because obviously I'm not doing a very good job of discovering it.
Meh. I've been obsessive about coloring things in Photoshop lately. I'm not very good at it, but it amuses me to try. The only two things that I've done so far that I sort of like are this punkish looking girl and this chick holding a doll head. The first one I drew like a year ago, and the second is a few months old, and in case you can't read it the collar says, "BOY."
Anyway. I'm going to go read for a while, I think. Happy Thanksgiving, everyone. :)
-Amanda
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