February 03, 2002 :: 5:56 p.m.
watch as I become the Incredible Hulkess
I can be a very violent person sometimes. Like now. I almost broke my phone, because after I go off of it (I was talking to Adam), I threw it at the wall. The back came off and the battery flew out; basically, it split in half. I fixed it, though. I called Joe to see if he wanted to go to the gym, because there are punching bags there and I can beat the living hell out of something and feel no remorse. He's not home, though. Hopefully he'll get back soon and call to say that he would, in fact, love to go to the gym and watch me take out my aggression on a bag of hard foam.
Argh. I have such a short temper. But it's not really about my temper, though, because I don't have to be angry to want to hurt things. I can be depressed, or disappointed, or just irritated. Actually, all of that eventually translates into anger, so I suppose it really is about my temper. Blah.
Today has been very unproductive thus far. I got up at one, ate lunch, considered going for a walk but decided against it due to exceptionally chilly temperatures, and read lots of magazines. A few hours later I ate dinner, which was good - wild rice and veggies wrapped up in a flour tortilla. Mmm. More magazine perusal followed, and then I talked to Adam, and then I threw my phone at the wall, and then I ate some cake. I'm trying to eat well, so I feel a little bad about that, but you know what? I was not happy and I wanted some cake, so dammit, I ate some cake. Besides, I haven't had any junk food in days. Gimme a break.
Mason is watching boxing. Seeing people beat each other bloody isn't what I need to be watching right now. I should be watching cute, fluffy animals frolic through fields or something. Stupid organized violence. Stop making me want to punch things.
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