May 24, 2004 :: 1:30 a.m.
a series of unfortunate events
God, I never update anymore. It's so sad. Sometimes I feel like I don't have anything to write about, even though there's stuff going on. But most times I just don't feel like writing at all. Things are not so great here at Casa de Lemon, family-wise. My parents are, for all intents are purposes, split up. My dad is moving out. I've become a sounding board for all of his frustrations which, while nice in terms of bringing us a bit closer together, is not exactly easy for me. Yes, I'm an adult. I can handle it. That doesn't mean I like that it's happening, or that I needed and/or wanted to know some of the things that I do now. As for my mom... well, she's never home. I cross paths with her maybe 4 times a week. It's depressing. And Mason is like a frickin' bull in a china shop, if I may fall back on clich�. A human wrecking ball. I feel bad for him, though. I'm old enough to at least take decent care of myself; he's not so good at that. The kid needs parents. And while he may have them in theory... not so much in practice.
Le sigh. On other fronts: still unemployed (blasted temp agency), still stalled in terms of weight loss despite my best efforts, still running (started the ninth and final week of the program this morning). Still planning to mortgage my soul to a loan company in order to move out in August. I've looked into loans from my bank, but they've got nothing. Nothing that I can use, at least. And the sad part is that getting out of this house? Is totally worth my soul. And my firstborn child, were I planning to have any. I'm not, though, so I would actually be comfortable with that bargain.
I bought a pair of flip-flops tonight that are very cute but apparently unwearable. I must have really fat feet or something, because they, like, cut off my circulation. It's annoying. They were only two dollars, but when you have no source of income two dollars wasted is actually worth getting a little miffed about. Gah.
Speaking of buying things - Season Six of Buffy comes out on Tuesday. You better believe I'll be first in line. I love how I never have any money, and yet when it comes time to get the new Buffy/Angel DVD set I manage to scrounge up what I need. It's a gift, really. And also a grandmother who needs carted around a little too frequently for my liking. But in any case, I'm muy excited for that one. Season Six isn't the best of them, but it's the one that I've seen the least of. And the musical! I love me some musical Buffy.
Anyway. Sleep. I'll try to be more diligent about updating, but... well, we'll see. I'm such a loser.
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