August 05, 2003 :: 2:28 a.m.
the deep and disconcerting mind of Mr. Toaster
My head is too full of worries to write, really. It's interesting to hear myself say that, or think it and then type it, rather, because usually that's when I want to write most. Tonight I just want to curl up and cry, just as I've wanted to do for the last few nights and as I'm sure I'll want to do for the next few as well. It's not any sort of invigorating; I'm sure the Depression Lite music that I've got going on isn't helping the situation, either, but somehow it just doesn't seem appropriate to shake my butt to Spanish pop when things are so very not worth celebrating.
Well, there's one thing worth celebrating. I hit Sal's this afternoon on my way home from my grandma's house, and oh, how fruitful it was. I got four shirts, a dress, a skirt, two belts, two ties, and three books for $14.48. Two of the shirts featured - get this - Ghostbusters! I was so excited about finding them that I did a little victory dance in the dressing room. One is dark blue with the Ghostbusters logo thing on it, and the other is a more regular shade of blue with the logo and "We ain't afraid of no ghosts!" on it. I gave the latter to Adam, because while I was indeed very tempted to keep them both for myself, I love him and thus he gets to share my good fortune, however small it may be. I did a load of laundry over at Joe's tonight that included all of my Salvation Army treasures, so tomorrow I think I'll be donning the Ghostbusters t-shirt and then caressing it from time to time like a serial killer with OCD. One of the belts would go perfectly, but unfortunately neither of them actually fit my fat ass. Or hips, rather. It's very depressing. They're not huge belts or anything - they just barely fit Adam, and he's a pretty thin person, but still. It's not exactly a self-esteem booster, is all I'm saying.
Other than my thrifting adventure, it's been a dull day. Dull and depressing and lots of other unpleasant D-words. So instead of going on about my various and sundry troubles and concerns, I'll leave you with this. It's something to ponder, anyway.
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