November 18, 2002 :: 9:06 a.m.
see the sun rise so loud / this whole town gets drowned out
For the last week or so, my Diaryland buddy list has been pretty dormant. Where is everyone?? I know I shouldn't talk... well, actually, I have every right to talk, because with a few exceptions I'm a daily kind of girl. Come on, people, I need amusement in the form of legal snooping. I've got lots of nosey and nothing to do with it.
Okay. I officially hate WinAmp. It has been the pissiest, most temperamental bastard lately. Stop fucking with my Liz Phair, you sleek, compact hell beast!
Erg. Sorry, I'm not entirely coherent just yet. Adam slept over last night (because how sad would it have been to sleep on separate floors on our two-year anniversary?), which was fantastic but made getting out of bed this morning even harder. I am so sick of this, and I haven't even been here for an entire semester yet. Something has to change, because this is just not working for me. I love living one floor below Adam, but otherwise I'm not happy here... I don't like my major, I don't like dorm living, and I sure as hell don't like anyone on campus. And it makes me feel like a huge loser, because I'm totally friendless. It's not even that I really want friends here, because to be perfectly honest I haven't met a single person that I would want to talk to or hang out with, but it's just the principle of the thing. I may not be the most gregarious, open person on the face of the planet, but I'm not outright mean to people. Am I really so completely grotesque and unlikable? And who am I going to live with next year? I'm pretty sure that Emily will want to room with one of her friends, and since I have no friends, where does that leave me? I'd love to live off-campus, but I'm 99.7% sure that I won't be able to afford it.
Blah. Today sucks. It's 38 degrees outside, but according to my handy dandy Weather Bug, the wind chill makes it feel like 28 degrees. I would have said something more along the lines of 12 degrees, but hey. I'm always cold, and so when it's freezing out, I get very grumpy. Because being cold is no fun at all. I don't usually wear my coat to class, because it's kind of big, but fuck it. It's coming with me to Digicom or I'm not going at all. I have so much shit to get done before Thanksgiving break, but all I want to do is sit here and draw pictures with my glorious new tablet and kick Emily out so that Adam can be my roommate. Yeah, that's likely. Just like a pterodactyl flying through the window and eating her up, right? Hey, I can dream.
I'm going to go play with my tablet now, because it's way more fun than thinking about how craptastic everything seems at the moment. I'll write later, to fill you in on all the non-cheery goodness that is sure to fill up my day.
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