November 19, 2001 :: 3:02 a.m.
there's a ghost in the house
listening to... The Rockfords,
The Rockfords.
reading... nada. I'm starting a new book tonight.
feeling... peaceful.
Ah! I forgot to mention this earlier, but we got a new scanner! It's cute and flat and a million times better than the old one. It's not quite up to par in the footstool department, but I'd rather be able to scan thing than put my feet on it anyway, so I can overlook that. Since I got home I've been scanning like a madman. It's like a big scanner-induced orgasm. *drools*
Other than humping my scanner, I've been toying with new designs for this thing... I'm so impatient. I've had it up for what, like a week? Maybe a week. Probably less. I came up with some fun things, but I actually kind of like this one... it's simple and it works. So I think I'm just going to keep this up until I get sick of it, or can't withstand the temptation to change it, or whatever. If I don't make myself leave it alone it'll change every 3 days anyway, and that would just be pointless.
I need more waaaaaaater. Please hold.
*fetching water*
I swear to God, I'm sprouting gills.
So anyway. I'm thinking about college again. *sigh* What's new? Actually, there is something new about it, for once. For... well, forever, really... the only thing I ever thought of doing after high school was going to art school. I don't know why. I guess it's just that art is something that I have at least a smidgen of talent in, and I enjoy it, so I figured that going to art school made sense. But as I start getting into the thick of all this - applications, portfolios, essays, etc. - I've been having doubts about it. It's like I've not sure if this is what I really want to do or if I just think I want to do it, you know? I don't know what I want, I guess, which is just foul. But I don't want to do that. I don't want to think that I want to go into animation and pursue it, and then discover that it's not really what I wanted after all. That's such a waste of time. I mean, yeah, it sounds cool and like something that I'd like to do, but can I, really? Am I talented enough for that? I don't think so, honestly. I'm not an artist. I'm some chick who likes to draw sometimes.
Adam and I were talking about this on Friday night, and he said some things that made me totally reconsider this art school thing. So here I am, again, sifting through millions of schools, trying to find one that fits what I want... which is now actually focused on Asian Studies. *laughs* What a switch, eh? Yeah. But I like it. A lot. It's something that interests me more than... well, more than most things, and I'm interested by a lot. I don't know. I'm still not definite about anything. We'll see, I guess.
Whoa. It got really cold in here all of a sudden. Weird.
Oh, speaking of cold... this is just funny as hell. My oldest sister thinks she has a ghost in her house. I'm pretty sure I've never mentioned her before, but you must realize that this woman is incredibly neurotic and paranoid. If she has a cough, she thinks she has AIDS; although lately it's been anthrax. She doesn't have problems, she has tragedies. She calls my father at least 3 or 4 times a day to ask his opinion on one or another of her ongoing crises. Nothing is ever simple. Basically, she's nuts. Anyway. She thinks she has a ghost in her house. So she had a priest of some sort come in and bless the place, and now she's trying to find out what the ghost wants so that she can make it leave. She has her two kids scared witless. Now, I'm as much of a believer in ghosts as anyone, but honestly. Somehow I just can't accept this. Oh, maybe because it's my sister and she's a fucking psycho? Yeah, I'm thinking that might be it.
Oy. My shoulders hurt again. I need to get a brace of some sort.
I'm going out with Joe after he gets off work tomorrow. We're going to go job-hunting for me and I'm going to give him his fun Poe condom and things. Speaking of Poe... I drew a little cartoon of her, which you can see here if you want. This is how she looked at the show last night. It's kind of half-assed, but I was being lazy and didn't feel like bothering with anything fancy, so whatever.
Well. I'm off to scour the internet for colleges. Again. Wish me luck. :)
-Amanda
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