November 30, 2001 :: 3:20 a.m.
I got the will to drive myself sleepless
listening to... nothing.
reading... nothing.
feeling... cold.
So it's 3 a.m., and I'm not closer to sleep than I was when I last wrote. No closer to needing any of the pads or tampons sitting in my bathroom, either. I've been trying to keep myself occupied by reading and such, but my attention span isn't the greatest right now. If it doesn't involve blood or a baby, my brain doesn't want to spend more than a few minutes thinking about it. Or maybe it's just my freakishly obsessive nature coming into play; that's always a good possibility.
I did manage to finish tex and molly in the afterlife, though. Good book. I'll post the rest of the Factoids here sometime when I'm not feeling so out of sorts. Meaning hopefully a matter of hours from now, when I'm dancing around gleefully as the cramp-monster starts gnawing at my stomach. You know, I never thought I'd be so eager to see that little bugger, but now... I'd sell most of my family just to experience the wonderfully reassuring agony that is a menstrual cramp.
If I don't have something good to report by tomorrow - which is technically today, but I haven't gone to bed yet so whatever - I will begin to have some serious issues. Well yes, I'll definitely have some serious fucking issues, but I mean other than the obvious. In addition to the issues typically associated with a late/no show period, my mind will begin to deteriorate into a worthless mass of jelly, scarcely held together by its own stickiness. My emotional state will become more of an emotional tornado, wreaking havoc on the Kansas that is my sanity. And then, of course, I will either be committed to a mental ward or die.
So you know, let's all cross out fingers and hope that Aunt Flo makes her monthly appearance.
-Amanda
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